Chapter 7

"of course I did Jon, and I know you came so its all good."'

"No it's not." I caressed her cheek while I talked. "If the woman I'm with doesn't enjoy it then it wasn't any good for me either."

"But you came so it was good."

"Is that what he told you?"

I pulled back from him wrapping a sheet around my body and sat up. "Isn't that true Jon? You wanted in and to fuck, but I gave you that and you came so its good, I did good."

"No it's not honey, I mean dont' get me wrong I enjoyed myself but - " I sat up in the bed beside her then pulled the sheet across my lap. "I want you to enjoy it to and not just have sex because I want to."

I looked down at him, and then looked up at him, "Jon I like giving head, that’s one thing I was never forced to do, he didn't like it so I never had to do it to him I did it to the guys before him and I'm good at it, I was looking forward to enjoying that and you don't like it."

"I guess I'm like him in that aspect because - well when I was on the road that was the one thing Dot would allow."

"So we're not compatible sexually?"

"Not fully I don't guess."

"Well I guess its good we find that out now before we get more invested."

"Are you breaking up with me before we even start dating?" Now that was a new one for me.

"But you just said we're not compatible, why would we want to keep dating if we can't have a great sex life?"

"No I didn't say that, what I meant was that we could work on it. Just because I don’t necessarily like getting a blow job right now doesn't mean I wouldn't be up for it later. It's just that it reminds of my career and right now i don't want to think about that - I want to think about if there could ever be an us."

"Yeah but it’s part of what I like sexually and it turns me on to make my guy insane with my mouth and typically it makes men very touchy feely which means I'd get more foreplay which wouldn't make me so dry when you start fucking me."

"So I did hurt you?" Just from those last words alone I knew that I did. "Why didn't you tell me to stop? You know that I would have."

"It hurt, your dick is huge and I wasn't that wet."

"Baby I'm sorry." I reached around her shoulder pulling her close.

"Its normal for sex for me."

"So you're husband had a little dick too?" I joked. "I'm not nearly that big baby."

"You are so wrong, your dick is like 4 times the size as his in length and width, you're huge."

"Damn did he even have one?" I blurted.

I looked at him, "Oh yeah, a big enough one to hurt me."

I leaned over kissing her cheek. "And here I did the same damn thing to you."

A single tear dropped from my eye. "You didn't do it completely on purpose, you just wanted sex it had been a few months."

"Yeah but I could've waited till you were completely ready. I'm sorry."

"Better luck next time?"

"Yeah." I smiled over at her. "I don't want to give up on us because to be honest I think there's something there."

"Do you really or are you saying that to make me feel better? I don't normally have sex with just anyone."

"No I really do Robin, we've got alot in common and not to mention I'm comfortable with you. I don't say that about just anybody. I feel like I can let my guard down with you."

"Now that you got laid, do you think you and I can get better at this sex thing."

I couldn't help but laugh, it was the first time I was ever told I basically wasn't any good. "I guess so."

"What are you laughing at?"

"I've just never been told that I suck."

"I'm sure you don't suck Jon but my body isn't your ex wife's I'm sure you could play her
like a fiddle, I don't react the same way as she does to things so there's a learning curve."

"Yeah I could always get her goin' with no problem."

"Maybe someday you'll have the same luck with me."

"I can guarantee that."

"We just need to learn what each other likes."

"I know you're all for blow jobs but did your husband ever go down on you?"

"Oh God no. It was roll over spread your legs I'm going to get what I want now shut up and go to sleep."

"Really? So have you ever experienced that?"

"Oh yeah with ex's we had a lot of fun tormenting each other, my one ex Mike and I never had sex we just did oral all the time."

"You know I'm always up for trying to please you again." I smirked.

"We need to figure out likes and dislikes, so if I can't give you oral, what are your major turn ons?"

"Lingerie obviously but baby just for future reference, those stockings and things don't do anything for me."

"So do you wanna go out and buy some that you like so I get the idea of what your style is?"

"Sure we can do that tomorrow if you want."

"Ok what else do you like? Are you one to kiss and tease for any length of time, tonight seemed about 5 minutes and then you started undressing me, is that normal?" I asked laying back down on the bed.

"No usually I'm not like that to be honest. I just wanted to be with you so bad -" I looked down as I sighed. "And I didn't hold out my promise to you for that orgasm."

"Hold that thought I have to pee." I kissed him quick and jumped up running to the bathroom
trying not to show the pain I was still in.

When she got up I pulled the covers back to give her one less thing to deal with when she got back into the bed but much to my surpise there was blood on the sheet where she had been setting. Guilt instantly set in when i realized just how bad I hurt her.

I walked back into the room with a bathrobe on me, "How about we take a shower Jon, my muscles are a little stiff."

"And because you're bleeding?" I pulled back the covers letting her see. "I'm so sorry Robin."

"Can we shower and go sleep in your room."

"Are you sure you want to be with me after that?"

"That's not unusual for me."

"Well it is for me." I walked over to her putting my arm around her waist then kissed her forehead. "I feel awful."

"Jon just don't let it happen again now that you've cum I'm sure you'll be gentler."

"Well yeah I mean I've been holding all those urges in for months now."

"Don't you masturbate?" I asked flippantly as I got into the shower.

"More often now than I did while I was married, why do you ask?"

"Well it just didn't make much sense how bad you needed to cum if you jack off after all that's the same release I gave you."

"No baby it's not. When your with somebody it's all different."

"Masturbation is always so much more intense for me."

"Not for me. I like feeling that warmth around me when I come."

"Masturbation doesn't hurt so I like it better, but oral sex rocks that orgasm is very intense."

"We'll have to practice that one day."

"I thought you didn't do oral with people you care about?"

"I don't but whenever I've gotten it from women then it's been pretty intense."

"You know we could start a new policy?"

"New relationship so that makes sense."

"Hey we're in a relationship?"

"We're showering together so I would say yes." I smiled. "That is of course if you want us to be."

"I'd like that, lets not tell others how we decided that though ok?"

"Oh I'm not gonna tell my parents that we decided we were dating during a shower." I laughed
reaching over for the washcloth to help her was her back.

"How about we try everything once with each other and we decide if we like it or not and don't let the past dictate our future?"

"That's fine with me."

"Are you sure or do you really not want to try something for any other reason then your ex?"

"No I'm perfectly fine with starting over again."

"I Just figure its only right that we begin a new relationship with a fresh perspective."

"I fully agree baby."

I turned around and looked at him, "You're pretty hot all soapy and wet."

"You don't look to bad yourself ya know."

"OH you like this all soapy and wet look huh?" I laughed at him reaching up and washed his hair.

"Yeah it gives me naughty thoughts again."

"OH boy here we go again." I laughed and rinsed off quickly.

"You'll learn that I get those quite frequently."

Finally when we were clean again, we took the short process of putting on a few clothes to walk down the hall, Jon just put on his shorts and I was in light sweats and a t-shirt. Enough to be seen in the hallway but nothing that I'll actually sleep in. After putting the please clean sign on the door we left. Once inside Jon's room his phone rang. "Boy aren't you popular."

"Yeah I guess so." Unsure of who it was I sat on the side of the bed answering it. "Hello."

"Hey Jon, your daughter wants to speak to dadadadada do you have a moment for her." Dot rambled.

"Yeah Dottie, you know I always have time for her."

"Because she is driving me batty." Dot turned around, "Steph daddy's on the phone."

"Our daughter driving you batty?" I laughed. "Surely not."

"Yay daddy!" She ran over to her taking the phone. "Daddy!"

"Hey pumpkin." I smiled laying back on the bed. "How's my little girl doing?"

"I great!" She screamed like tony the tiger.

"Well that's good to hear." I laughed. "Have you colored me any more pictures?"

"85" She laughed.

"85 huh? I bet I'll be able to decorate the house with 'em then."

"I keep going, mommy get me more blue"

"Blue?"

"I Like blue."

"Oh, I thought you're favorite color was purple?"

"Daddy dat old"

"Old? Hey I remember when I left a couple of weeks ago that you still liked purple."

"I stopped. By daddy love you" Steph then handed the phone to her mom and walked away.

Dot laughed, "Got that Jon"

"Yeah I think so." I laughed. "Remind me to return that cute little purple bear I found down
here."

"NO she still has purple in her room but we're currently coloring daddys eyes color."

"Ahh so that's why it's her new favorite color."

"Yes. She just wanted to say hi before she went to bed."

I got up and walked into the bathroom to brush my teeth while Jon was on the phone with his ex.

"And that little rugrat didn't even tell me goodnight?"

"Hey she told you she loves you thats all you get."

"Yeah well I'm greedy - you know that." I joked.

She rolled her eyes, "Yes I know Jon."

"So how are you doing?"

"I'm doing ok Jon, I'm actually getting to find normal, Steph runs non stop from morning til night, and after I get over this stomach ache I'll be good."

"Stomach ache? Have you been to the doctor or is just one of those 24 hour things?"

"I think its a 24 hr thing compounded by the winter."

"Yeah it could be I guess. Not to mention the stress of everything else going on."

"Yeah so I'll let you go Jon, Steph fell asleep on her coloring book."

"So you don't want to talk to me? I'm hurt."

"Well I would have thought you wouldn't want to talk to me."

"Dottie you've been my best friend for as long as I can remember. Just because we got divorced it doesn't mean I want you completely out of my life."

"I'll never be completely out of your life, we have a daughter."

"I think I know that but back to that best friend part - I can talk to you about anything right?"

"Almost anything, what's up?"

"I'm just curious. Did you ever fake it with me?"

"Jon" She laughed

"What? Dottie I'm serious."

"Yes of course I did Jon, every woman does from time to time. Why are you asking?"

"I have my reasons."

"You met someone, had sex with her and you think she faked it?" Dot asked but more like a statement than anything.

"well yeah kind of."

I might as well tell her now before she reads about it in the paper.'

"How kind of Jon?"

"Okay I did."

Glancing over at the bathroom door he saw that it was still shut. "I met someone Dottie."

"And you've known each other 3 days and she faked it already "

"Well when you say it like that it sounds bad."

"Yeah Jon I'd question her because you're not a bad lover, you're greedy from time to time but I didn't have to fake it until at least a year in."

I walked out of the bathroom and walked out onto the patio, I can't believe we had sex tonight, bad sex but still and he's on the phone with his ex wife, and to think I decided to give him the benefit of the doubt and brought a few condoms in my purse after putting all the rest in the nightstand again.

"A year! You mean you faked it for 13 years?"

"Every now and then Jon, you sometimes want sex before I'd be fully in the mood, you knew how to play my body so I'd let you do it and pretend like I was with you all the way, sometimes I'd just as soon do that than argue with you."

"And you couldn't have told me that then?"

"Guys don't like being told they aren't perfect in bed. Where is she? Have you really been talking to me with her in your room?"

"Well yeah she was doing whatever women do before you go to bed."

Obviously I didn't see anything wrong with this. Dot was my wife and we do have a child together so it wasn't out of the ordinary for me to talk to her.

"Good night Jon, plan on sleeping on the couch."

"Night Dottie. I hope you feel better."

"Thanks, Jon." Dot hung up.